OF REVIVING THIS BLOG, MUSIC THERAPY, AND GOODBYES

The 1st ANNIVERSARY of the existence of my BLOG!!! So, to commemorate this special occasion, I will revive this blog… and make a new resolution to regularly update it… I hope… So let’s just start with the topic alright?

Music. Well, everyone’s heard of it right? I mean, not just the word MUSIC, but actually listened to some kind of form of music, one form or another. But what is music? Some argued that it’s what singers do for a living, that is, singing songs, belting out hits after hits, screaming, rapping, yapping… and so on and so forth. Some said it’s just about smashing guitars, beating drums or playing any kind instrument. But I’m not writing here today about what’s music and what isn’t. No, I’m absolutely not talking about that. That’s just me… doing the long-winding way, beating around the bush… dilly-dallying you could say. I’m just doing what I’m doing.

So, here’s the point of my writing. What is music therapy? NOTE of CAUTION. I didn’t do any research whatsoever on music therapy. What do you think? I’m writing this at 11.45pm, for Earth’s sake!!! Do you think I have time to do a research? So… I REPEAT, I did not do any kind of research on MUSIC THERAPY, so what I’m writing here is just my interpretation… or more likely… about ME!!! (There is go again… dilly-dallying)

Ok, so let’s get back to the point. What is music therapy? Well, most would agree that music therapy involves plugging one’s ears with the earphones, filling the ear with any kind of music that suits our fancy (or the extremely inconsiderate ones would be doing a “community service” e.g. blasting noise at max from the stereo). Yes, to some, it helps soothe their overly anxious nerves. To others, it helps them focus on their work, which most students would be more than willing to agree with me on that one. Yup, some can study with music, while others (e.g. yours truly) would get distracted, because I want to appreciate the music.

But music therapy in my interpretation? Well, I used it as some sort of storage space… I guess. What? Storage space? Yes, folks, you read that right. STORAGE SPACE. I actually use it as a storage space. Well, not literally to store my stuffs like books or clothes, but to keep… sensitive information. I would call that emotions. For a (former) introvert, it’s difficult to voice out what I want. It’s usually others first. So where do all these excess energy went to? I keep in music, of course.

Have you ever listened to a nice song, and realized that you just want to repeat it over and over and over again? And how could that song just seem so right at that time? I believe it’s affected by our moods. If we’re happy, we tend to listen to happy songs. If we’re angry, we go for rampage-inducing songs. For me, if I’m feeling extremely emotional at that time, an appropriate song will just come to me. And when I’m finally worn down, beaten to a pulp by this emotion, I’ll listen to that particular music. All the emotions slowly melt away and flowed into that song. It calms the mind, and soothes the soul. And then, the song gets chucked somewhere else, hardly to be listened to again, even if it’s a very nice song. You see, if I were to listen to that song again, no matter how much time has passed, I would remember the time, the event, the feeling, the details, the emotions when I first stored them into the song. So, yeah, music isn’t just a therapy to me, it becomes some sort of my second memory.

Will I listen to the songs again, even if some of them are guardians to my most hurtful emotions? Those that left scars? Wounds that could never close properly? Maybe. Why not? There’s one thing I’ve learned from these past 2 years… the past is there, so that we can look forward to the future, but most of all, to make us appreciate of the present.

P.S. Today’s entry is very inconsistent in content and structure, because I was too lazy to double check :P.

P.S.S. Oh, yeah, so what’s my music for 30/06/2007? Well, it’s For Fruits Basket (By Ritsuko Okazaki). A very nice song, quite touching actually. Fits exactly the mood and event of these past few days. Even down to the lyrics.

P.S.S.S. Have a great life at uni, to all my friends! “Let’s stay together itsumo”